And when the moment passes and I do not decipher it's meaning, is it too late to go back and respond? At times I choose in brief moment to ignore the moment. I speak when I ought to be silent. I stand alone when I ought to reach out. I look away when I ought to smile.
What is it that makes me choose in that split second? Is it ignorance? Pride? Insecurity? All of the above? I wonder how my life would change if I became more intensely aware of the choices I make moment to moment. I wonder what would change if my actions towards others were completely void of any consideration for myself. If I lived every moment of the day as dead to myself but alive to Christ, I would perhaps rarely think about myself at all.